i wished someone knew
how i really feel
but then again
i don't think i want anyone to feel
what i'm feeling

i wish people understand me
understand what i want

i always naively thought that people just wont say
things like i will miss you so much
or please don't... i need you

because they were too mushy and too couple-ish

i guess now i realized sometimes
these things never really crossed their mind

if they believed you
they would say it
if they cared enough
they would say it
if they love you..

they would say it.

but they didnt

i guess its hard to lie.
especially when its such an absurd lie.

tonight i go to sleep,
crying, beaten and broken.

tomorrow i awaken,
sore and numb.

pain that was buried,
dug out,
tugging at the scabs
pulling on new wounds..

my heart bleeds,
just like before...
just a little less now

happiness heals everything ..
as always..

hand me my little sand bucket
and i will bury these wounds deeper this time..

for making us ..
no.. you happy
is what's that keeping a smile on my face.

let me go to sleep tomorrow...
with a smile on my face.

i hate being sick

i am craving for eggs and a burger
and fries

and i'm sick.

i just wanted someone to baby me,
let me be all pissy and insecure
and whine
cause i'm sick.

obviously ,
once again, according to you,
i was out of my mind.

it made me sad, and i cried
note to self, don't cry when sick,
it makes the whole flu thing worse.

nvm. i still love you.

yes very foolish of me, but i still love you.