fashion-inspiration much
GD <3
gonna try to diy the white fringe top he has :)

it was awkward
the smiles, the small talks
and those small looks from the corner of the eyes

those exchanged glances

moving forward
these awkwardness of finding you
talking bout things you should have moved on from
these small little lingering touches
that leaves an impact too painful for the heart to bear.

as you start afresh with her
i wonder those subtle hints of you finding her interesting and so on
will ever go away
and slowly tears fall
and i realized

it will never go away
for truth is
its

you who is,

going away.

friends
i am not good at this.

i commit all the mistakes
and say all the wrong things.

i am cold,often depressed,
cynical and impossible..

i am a master at getting rid of people who genuinely cared about me
alienating new possible friends
ridding off possible good friendships and relationships

there is rarely a day when i get off just being happy
there is rarely a day when i can just get off without crying

my head hurts
i wish its something terminal

then maybe
i can let my friends be happy

with their happy future without my existence.

being suicidal at all time is apparently deadly
good.

• whole body sore. bloody tired.
• feeling feverish.scaring myself
• 6 subs or 5?
• feel bad or DON'T feel bad?
• need more money,need more money
• need to remember and have constant flashbacks.
• try to eat on time.
• sleep on time as well.
• get used to morning classes :(
• need a car, need a car.
• need to ignore all negative comments
• need/want to kiss him so badly.
• mucho adorableness
• going crazyyy
• ahh fluffy hair fluffy hair
• TAEMINIEEEEE.
• sigh need to stop being such an embarrasing fangirlnoona.
  
• avoid all shops. NEED to resist shopping. :(

i dont know if what i'm about to do is
the right thing
a good thing
or the best thing

but in time
from now
i will know and try to learn from it.

hope all the stress and dilemmas i will suffer from is worth it.

anyway, birthday is coming up
birthday wish?



i want these babies to appear in my size on my bed
on my birthday morning.
ok dreamer much.

:3

oh baby you make my heart break

topshop

i am having a girl crush on her .
pics from stockholmstreetstyle

there's always a reason for something that happens in life.

like there is always a reason of why i keep those messages
tearing up as i read them
deep in the night

like there is always a reason on why i say the things i say
just to mask my true feelings
my real desires
my desires to keep you away

like there is always a reason why i cant help but be sad
all the time
the guilt , the pain, the anger
it washes over all my bits of happiness

like there is

there must have been a reason

why i realized what i realized last night
in tears , lying on my bed
there must be a reason on why i MUST realized that

i guess the reason is that i have to move on.
i have to move on, cause you are already gone

as much as i want to be alone with you.