so on feb 17, someone is leaving.

well this certain someone has been in my life for bout 7 years. for 7 years, we have never been
apart from each other for no longer than 2 weeks. well now, she's gonna be gone for 2 years.

i met this person, on the first meeting of the english club at school when we were 14. my first impression on her was that she's smart and confident. someone who i felt a bit inferior towards to.

we soon became close friends, constantly laughing and bickering bout almost everything under the sun. we would walk to her house almost every other day, snacking on something while laughing hysterically at something stupid for instance like a dog.

i remembered all the fights i had with her, all the jokes, all the laughter we shared and all the tears that flowed because of what we experienced. we used to talk every single day  on the phone without fail till it became a tradition for her to call me once everyday. my mum slowly became a psychic, for she knew, every time before picking up the phone, she would just yell, : " jessie!!! its her!!"

it became an inside joke for the both of us.

then we slowly moved to college, everyone thought that we would grow apart, i thought so too.
being the immature bitch that i was, i tried to end the friendship. thinking that i had outgrown myself from the friendship i had with her, but i was wrong. for there was never a minute of that time in my life, where it felt right saying she wasnt my best friend. 

she wasnt my best friend anymore, i realized. she was family.

there are hundreds of things that she does that pisses me off, but i could think off an infinity amount of things that makes me smile, laugh and feel lucky. she over reacts, over analyze, over stresses herself, every things she does, she tries hard to exceed the limit, its as though she is trying to win the award of being the most stressed out person on earth or something.
 

things that she makes you decipher makes you wonder that maybe you are now eligible to receive masters in psychology.

but its the way she stresses out, the way she goes, so how , so how, that makes us, her friends laugh. she brings joy to the group, all in all, she fulfilled almost every duty a friend and a best friend can do.she remembers everyone's birthday, pushes everyone to have a gathering, constantly asking us to spend time with each other more.

without even realizing it, she has become a role model of how a friend should be like.

i have no idea what would i do , if i had lived those 7 years without her. no one would have laughed at every stupid joke that i had, no one would pester me bout some stupid sale that's going on in some unknown region, no one would make me go online just to transfer some stupid pics , no one would make me stay in the fitting room just to help her decide which top to get only to have decided and have her find a nicer one and repeat the wholegoddamned process again,

no one would have make me follow her to some place just to try something she likes, but last but not least, no one would have made me happy, and of course, the jessie that i am today.

this person has made me stronger, more confident, more understanding and most of all, a much happier person, and everyone who knows me would know who this person is.

•  eh, you. i hope you know how emo i'm gonna be when you fucking leave, in fact i'm not gonna wear any make up at all, so its easier to cry babi.
• you better remember me the throught out the whole period your there, take care of yourself, look left and right before you cross the road.
  
• dont bloody lose your memory or some shit like that and completely forget bout me. i will hunt you down and make you remember me.
• dont go swimming, there got great white shark wan
•  dont go stress everyone out there, after ppl kill you .
  
• your trademark the so how so how only works here. ang mohs tak faham you cakap ape .
  
• dont call me using your phone, i will rajin rajin online to see your face and go download skype and delete everything else so that our conversation on skype wont hang.
• dont diet so much, after when you come back at the airport nobody recognize you i cry thinking you lupa me d.

dont go bloody find another jessie ah, i will have some battle royale shit waiting for that impostor.

whatever it is, dont fucking forget me DO CLAREEN.

i will miss you loads, already counting down the days to doomsday, watching you leave might be the hardest thing to do, but hey whatever is it, i will always have your back and the best thing is i know and always knew that you always have mine.

cheesy much but hey, friends forever ok.

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