and the award for the worst girlfriend goes to...

someone once asked me.

hey jess,
will you make a good girlfriend.

now here's the thing...
i am very paranoid..
i tend to over dramatize stuffs
and sometimes i analyze things as if they hold the meaning of life itself.
so yeah.. needless to say this question got me thinking as well.
ngeh.

i thought well and long enough,
ponder endlessly,
and ....

i have no fucking clue.

i want to think that i will make a good girlfriend.
but at the same time, i don't think i will.

so to make my life easier i made a list of why i wont and will.

(its ok if you don't want to read it, its complete crap, but then again, all my posts are complete crap :) )

 here's why i would make a good girlfriend.

• ermm... i am funny? ( well i like to think that i am)
• i smile a lot..... a lot (ok that might scare guys off ..i think )
  
• i like hugs?
• i sleep a lot... like a lot... my close friends actually don't call me before 12 cause they know
  i am dozing my ass off.. and and most boys i know like to sleep, so yeah your girlfriend 
  wont call you before 1 or 2 or 3 ok fine 3.30? how cool!
• i have nice eyes... ( well i was told by someone i really care about)
• i am friendly ?
• i laugh a lot too?
• i am loud ( you know what maybe that's a major turn off for guys lol)
• i have brains
• i watch a lot of stupid crap and comedies.. bring on the jokes!
• owh owh i can speak canto and mandarin so if someone talks shit bout my bf i can
  language karate kick them back!
• i burp out loud ( ok thats bad right haha?)
• spongebob and patrick are my dates during my nick hours
  
  

i cant think of anything more... and here's why i would suck as a girlfriend.

• i tend to not take life seriously..
  
• i have too many emotional baggage that pops in and out in my life.
• i am bipolar like super level bipolar.
• i can be very emotional at times
• i cry easily
• i get mad easily as well
• i am easily paranoid
• i need  my bf to text me at least twice a day
• i get jealous easily but i wont tell
• i would care the world bout my bf but i wont  tell him( but my friends and lol ash would know)
• i am loud
• i am shallow
• i am too independent
• i sleep a lot lol
• i like making out ,too much sometimes :(
• when i get mad i am right  but i wont say... good news is i tend to let my bf win
• i forgive easily but its hard for me to forget..
• i am ugly and fat
• i dress freakishly -_-
• i talk a lot...like there's no tomorrow.
  
• i dont go clubbing (funny how time has change..now guys want girls who goes clubbing)
• i am too close to my bro and sis so yeah they will know bout my bf.
• i fall too easily yet take time to let go, so when i break up. it tears me up
• i am jessie.. full of flaws lol. so yeah that's a valid reason.
  

so yeah...
i am a bit pleased now since i made my head clear..sorry cause you guys have to read this
bare with me ppl. 

:D