i am sensitive

my stomach hurts

it turns at the thought of it

i tried to sleep

couldn't

went for a bath

came back and lied with my hair wet

i sat up again

close my eyes

and they just came flowing down

the pain

haha

i saw a car

with the number plate starting with the word

why

why..

i still feel the pain

i am thinking of excuses of why it happened

why of all people

i was the one chosen to be betrayed

why do i still want her to be happy

why do i still want to see her and hang out with her

i almost wanted to say

" don't stay away from her,
  nothing hurts more than calling the one you like,
   only to have them to never pick up the phone."

but i bit my tongue

maybe that was the last straw

maybe that was last slap my face could ever take

but it doesn't feel right.

i don't need this right now.

not right now.

not from you anyways.