so i did something weird today
i poured my heart out.
don't know why i did it
but i just did.

it's been days since i have visited that site
i was trying to forget

trying to forget how i always smile when i read the things there.

i am trying to let go

of things that will never work.

it wont right
he said so himself

why was i so ignorant?
throwing myself off a cliff 
when i know i will fall hard.

guess its just human nature to challenge the unchallengeable, huh.

haha..
and i thought i learnt my lesson when i tried to patch them up

no i did not.

jess your stupid.

when will you ever ever understand?
girls like you wait
girls like you are always kept waiting

girls like you always get second best

girls like you do not deserve guys like him

girls like you do not how to play the game

girls like you

always

get

hurt.

cause you always wait, with a stupid smile on your face,
even though you eyes well up in tears

thats why you always lose.

i know i will always lose,
i know i will always be the one waiting,
i know..

but i also know..
someday...

i will win.

but until then,
just let me curl up in my corner and watch my heart bleed in my palms ok :)
pretty please?

:)