she left last night

the pain was unbearable

i needed to sob

but couldn't afford to do so since everyone was there

we just hung around there 

guessing which plane was hers

i never had that moment where i could watch the plane lift off

when my heart would feel the same

taking a piece of my life away

cheesy and mushy much

but i miss her so much

gone are the days where i can dial the number

and hear her hellos

or no more sessions at williams regardless how much i hate it there

no more late night movies

and long stretched out sessions in the forever 21 fitting rooms

i wouldn't be seeing a silver myvi parked out side my house for 2 years

nor will i be going to that house 

or listening to replayed lady gaga s

i miss her so much

and its just day one.

help.