i am lying on the bed at 3:54 in the morning

the red light is on

lonely in gorgeous is playing

yes..its the paradise's kiss theme song

my hair is spread out across my shoulder

that kinda feels nice

i curl up bringing my feet up

hugging my pillow tighter

hmm i breath harder

i close my eyes

and all i can think of is you.

"give me your hand

 i shall slit it and watch the blood pour

 as you slowly die in my arms

 i shall smile and kiss you 

 i don't want to give you my heart

 so let me take your life."

haha funny how these morbid thoughts cloud my mind

i want to be happy

i want to

wait i think i am.

ever heard of letting go?
let go

i like someone else now

and seriously

its not you.

its him.

i want him

not you.

so let go.

just crapping.

clare.. i miss you.