on 5th of april
bout 10
i woke up with the worse feeling ever

fresh tears on my face

owh

right.

i texted haida and baity

i realized i need to get out

they picked me up

around noon

another sore note

its ja's birthday

owh 

right.

i was quiet the whole day

the ulcer really hurt

and i was very distracted

every few minutes 

someone touches me

looking at me with a concerned look in their eyes

babe, you ok

i heard that all day.

we went from sunway to klcc, whisked past midvalley twice,
back to puchong again,then off to pudu, then to murnis,
kota damansara then back to subang's mcds.

haha.

"you rasa banyak orang sayang kat i ke,b?"
i asked.

" banyak jess."

she said.

i lose a lot of things in life

people that i love,

trust,

friendships,

and most of all

my old self.

and tomorrow is the 7th
the d word is finalized.

having a fever is slowly killing me.

but when yesterday happened

and now , thinking bout it

i cant help but smile and go

i guess its not all that bad to be me.

thanks babes.
with you guys around i know i have something worth it 

to hold on for
love you guys very much too.

hugs :)