its those random shots.
its those random comments.

its those moments when you lose everything,
and out you go,
hurling every brain cells that contains sanity
out of your fucking brain.

your heart loses it too.
all your feelings are thrown into the mixer,
stirring anger,
awakening sadness,
happiness ceases, and gradually disappears...

its those conversations that goes
fuck you!!
i don't give a shit!
go to hell
you don't care, do you?!

all geared up
ready to fight
ready to charge

and when everything explodes
fireworks going
things goes slowly in motion
slowly freezes

then ...


you inhale

and bang!!!!

your heart breaks,
you start to cry,
you crumble to the floor.



and you end up with nothing but tears....

you never win,
how can you win?

when you are the one always left crying and bleeding to your death?
alone?


you don't win.
you just don't.

bipolar much.
i am SO drunk that i would actually call you now HAHA.
dunNFUNUININROGNFONOI





AND SLEEP!!

everyone just move on with their business
we are all really just seeking company in those cold ac-ed rooms
holding my own hands

i wondered if people did really wanted to stay
or they didnt really have a choice?

i think they didnt have any choice.

switching.

sleepslesleepslpeeppsepepespeeepppp

you know the actor from kyle xy?
whatever his name is, man, that boy
is YUMMYY MUCHO YUMMY.

so imagine my joy when i found another look alike on lookbook.
but he doesnt have a blog... ngeh
i cant stalk him :(
kidding i dont stalk.
i think :/

anyhoo
cleaned up my room just now
my baby sis helped and we fooled around with my photobooth for a bit
she said that the great lake swimmers are annoying
shuddup lil kid what do you know bout great music!!

ha...defensive much.

youtube's been a bitch to me lately
depriving me from daily needs of random videos!!
NOOOOO00000
i'm free bitches!! free from exams!!
bite me!!!
i'm bored!!!
wahoooo!!


ciao muthafuckers!!

i've been googling pretty funny and weird and downright disgusting stuffs lately
no thanks to that bear. idiot.
been pretty inspired to get my own place, no idea why.
must be the fact that i wanted privacy without offending the fire nation aka my mum.
ngeh.

my lips is all dry bloory and sore. yuck
i have exams on this thursday and then i am free.
hey,have any idea of how to erase an image from your fucking brain?

haha fave quote now?
i want to give you a hand job with my mouth
courtesy of kari :)





one of the vivi models eli rose








pics from the selby

a list of movies i decided i must watch/again

virgin suicides
10 things i hate about you
shaun of the dead
closer
love me if you dare
junebug
sunshine cleaning
charlie bartlett
gigantic
just friends
heathers
into the wild
coraline
the diving bell and the butterfly
let the right one in
500 days of summer
star wars
marie antoinette
cashback

songs i am currently addicted to
the xx- crystalised
air - playground love
air- alone in kyoto
nujabes - reflection eternal

my dream home shall look like this

i'm on the losing side
i've won one, no two over

but i am still losing
why?

because i am losing you.

haha.

rip Daul kim.

"oh ma, see, this is the guy right, that you told me about....who passed away due to an accident?" i said
"what..... " eyes concetrated on the tv.
" choy!! die already summore see for what?!"
" Dont watch, dont watch!! ".

i shrugged, continued watching that tall man with the big goofy smile delivering his lines in the drama.

tonight, out of curiosity, i googled
and found out that he died on the 21st of august last year,
and he was buried on the 23rd, my birthday.

while i was agonizing about how my birthday didnt seem so important to my friends,
in another part of the world,
friends and families were distraught by his death,
trying to keep their sanity after this sudden loss.

I thought that i wont be affected when i watch the drama
but now when i think of it.

he was so goofy in the drama
always funny and caring towards his friends
really makes you fall for him and makes you want to reach out and give him a bear hug
sometimes i felt that the character and him shared the same personality

an even more depressing note now isnt it?
to think that he was as lovely in real life as he was in the drama
ha..

r.i.p Lee Un
your smile will forever linger in those hearts you touched.