Are you sure you want to delete this post?

the window asked.
i see a light flickered,
someone is going to bed
or someone woke up.
well,
it is six in the morning.

i must have dipped my finger accidentally into my coffee just now,
cause even after when the coffee is gone,
the smells lingers.
i get a fresh whiff of it every time ,
i put strands of hair onto my lips.

last night i wrote ,
bout this certain little discovery i made....
after much thinking bout the boy i love so much.

isnt it funny how love functions?
its funny how we shape our ideal partner
or how in my case,
he would look ,act, dress like
i had it all mapped out..


only to
haha

fall for the complete opposites

to think that
i always wanted someone who,
i could curl up with, listening to lover's spit
watching cashback or short stories at some random site

or someone who enjoys spending long hours at bookshops,
reading books ,
or
someone who likes staying up talking to me,
about random nothings.
someone who saw the joy in taking slow walks,
absorbing views of the city at night.

haha or someone
who wont judge me for smoking and staying up way late

i guess, i wanted to fall in love with someone
who was somewhat like me
who could get the things i love
who could understand the things i like

but instead

i fell for you
hmm

it was then i realized
where's the fun in falling for someone who was like me

but the bigger picture is

you're just amazing?
i mean,
you're amazing enough for me,
to let go of what i once perceived of as perfection.

i love you.

sigh
oh how much i love you.