its 11.

eyes hurt,
i popped a piece of chocolate in my mouth,
it melts ,
i close my eyes..

i think i need to read a book.

note to self,
bring chocolate around when having period.
keeps you happy,
and at least the whole world wont hate you when you're psm-ing.

• period pain and period.
• assignment due today at 2 pm, without notes of words limitations,marks.
  
• lights decided to die on me at 3 am in the morning, scaring the shit out of me,
  flashbacks of stories of the shutter and the ghost game gideon played in my room
  runs wild in my mind .fuck.
  
• cramps, coffee breath
• noisy and heating up laptop
• unruly hair and dried up lips, not sexy.
• bunch of morons as classmates.
• very uncomfortable leather chair strategically placed next to fucking comfy bed...
  looks sooo inviting...
• very very messy room

 add all this for the perfect recipe for an extremely grumpy, irate, won't stop swearing jessie.

good morning.

superficial brunette with boobies

what is your current obsession?

cereal,chocolate milk,fighting/bickering over the phone with gideon -_-

What is your weirdest obsession?

fighting non stop 

What are you wearing today?

hot pink topshop tee,shorts

Why is today special?

nothing is special bout today

What would you like to learn to do?

how to shut up

What’s for dinner today?

pizza

What’s the last thing you bought?

shades

What are you listening to right now?

feist,css

What is your favourite weather?

sunny when i am outside,rainy when i am sleeping

What is your most challenging goal right now?

not to ruin things which are meant to be just ok

What do you think about the person who tagged you?

she is sweet,

If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be?

new york, a loft in new york.

Favorite vacation spot?

new york

What are you currently reading?

archies comics

What would you like to get rid of?

my insecurities please

If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go?

new york

Which language do you want to learn?

korean and french

What did you dream of last night?

fights,guys,make out sessions,

Who do you want to meet in person?

agyness deyn and clareen.

One thing that you would snitch out of someone’s closet, with no regrets?

owhhhh those ysl booties from the olsens!

What’s your favorite piece of clothing in your closet?

my fav combo to be exact, leggings and white tees

What is your dream job?

ultimate dream?having a job which doesnt feel like a job, but a dream instead :)

Personal aspirations at the moment?

get out of this college and go to another better college

Your style is influenced by?

fashion blogs,haida,music,models,ciggies

in these 2 days, i:

• listened to too much of css, going a bit jumpy haha. i need a beer!
• resisted the urge to get malboro lights
  
• bought new shades, only to remember haida darling has the same one  LOL
  
• tried on maxi dresses, me like, me like, thanks pa, ma for your tall genes.
• jumped around my room too much.
• got so bloody mad at some people.
• bang my phone around the room 
• read too much of fashion blogs... not a good thing, i wanna shopppp
• met naya again!! :)
• watched he's just not that into you ( with kingsley :) ) only to be utterly depressed
  cause it just made me terasa and depressed for most girls out there
• had too much cereal. lol
• re watched ghostworld,garden state, and the devil wears prada. movie therapy :D
• was supposed to go clubbing,instead stoned at murnis, being checked out and checking out
  cute smiley boys... yummy.
• having ppl to belanja beers is always nice :D. thanks sayang :)
  
• oh, and i am in love. beerrrsssss
  
  

that was my summed up 2 days. 
how was yours ?

you're defo off the hook 

wake up, online, have some cereal, smoke, online, sleep for a bit, online, sleep, online.

hit "repeat."

let me capture one perfect day where you're in it, and i shall press repeat forever.

scars.

stars.
cars.

scars,
run my fingers across them,
i feel the skin,

tears starts to fall.

scars,
dried up wounds,
dried up tears,
a cold, numb heart.

scars,
from a fall in the park,
a tale of broken dreams,
an afternoon spent crying under the duvet.

scars,
tales of how one lived life and bled,
tales of how one fell and stood up again,
uplifting tales that happens to those full with hope.

scars,
every part of my heart is filled with them,
show me yours,

get a drink

and i will tell you mine.

the difference between me and the other vaginas out there. LOL

i look around my room
its in a complete mess

i smile

rub my eyes a bit

lie down on my bed

stare at the ceiling

i know i know i know

i am not those type of girls

i am rude, love rude jokes , swears all the time

i smoke, i dont smile much

never friendly
burp way too loud,
i cut my own tees and own hair,

i hate top 40s, i laugh too loud,
i give too much cock stares haha

so different from every other nice girls out there

at least i have nice lips and eyes right
maybe sometimes i use vanilla i would smell nicer 

lol who the fuck am i kidding

boys

they will choose those girls any day over me man

even if i changed

bye boy, 

i know you're straying..

it was nice to have loved you